i am stupid

i am stupid.
don't read this.

i think i control the weather. it's raining.

D A R N.

Almost said the other word.

I WROTE A VERY ANGRY POST, BUT IT GOT ERASED.

My life is wonderful.

Byronieeeeee.

Are you there?

bitter.

if you aren't going to contribute, then DON'T JOIN.
thanks for ditching.
thanks for forgetting (about more than one thing).
thanks, my "friends".

I'm going to drink some orange-ade now.

Deferred!

Hi everyone! I got deferred. Well...better than rejection? Sometimes, I do think college admissions are a crapshoot (gasp i said the "seyward"!). Seriously. The people I thought would get in got deferred or rejected, some more qualified than the people who got in. Nonetheless, everyone who did get in are also very qualified, and I'm happy for them:)

Wow. So... I should start buying those Christmas presents now, huh? And work on those college apps again.

MY WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS BREAK:
-finish supplements for Harvard, Princeton, Yale, Pomona
-finish Columbia application
-read 700 pgs of Brother's K
-film Brothers K project for English
-review Hamlet and Macbeth for IB Commentary
-read Native Son
-Econ project (film)
-Prepare stats presentation
-Revise IB extended essay, write abstract
-Work on sketchbook!!
-Send art supplement?
-Work on AEP
-Work on CSUPERB

A Soliloquy

I like talking to Byron and Amy afterschool about random things like Desperate Housewives and possums. We have interesting discussions.

I like English class. Today I was Polonius from Hamlet. People wanted me to be him because he's a short old man, and apparently I fit the role quite well. I'm going to die tomorrow when Hamlet (Efrem) kills me.

I like tutoring. Yesterday I had my first tutoring session with this sophomore named Frank. I'm tutoring in Algebra 2 honors so far, but I also have a girl who needs help in algebra 2, and a guy who needs help in english 2 honors. It's a very rewarding feeling when I help someone understand a concept in math, and I really hope the tutoring session helped Frank.

I am very excited about Dancing With The Staff... it's probably the first "fun" school-related activity I'm going to this year (football game didn't really count because it wasn't that great), and I'm SO glad that the math test was moved to Friday.

I need new clothes. And shoes. I've been wearing my brown polka dot flip flops like every single day!! I want to shop.

I miss summer.

intuition

It's been forever since I updated this blog. Forgive me! I've been neglecting this for so long because either I'm too busy to write or I don't know what to say. Well... now I'm here, it's almost 11, I'm listening to Intuition by Feist, and I miss summer. I remember the great ole' days of summer vacation.. staying up past 12, chatting, reading books I WANT to read, and having no particular worries or anxiety. Now everything is just BLAH. Senior year isn't very great; in fact, ever since sophomore year I feel like everything's been going downhill.. I've become closer with some people, but I'm feeling as if I'm also losing some of my friends too. Oh well. SIGh. The school year is almost 1/4 over, and it feels like it hasn't even really started... the "best year" of our high school career isn't so great.. :\

So there's really not much to say except I submitted by Stanford application on Oct 14, 1 day before the art supplement deadline, and now I'm sooo anxious and can't wait until December. ACTUALLY, I can because it might not even be good news and I don't want to be disappointed. So I'll just say I can't wait til' winter break because nothing can make me upset during Christmas time.

What else...? I have a very boring life. Besides school, I have nothing to talk about. There's NOTHING. NADA. I wish I could be like my sister, who has something interesting to say every single day. What's there to say for me?? I took SAT II Math and Bio today, and hopefully I'll never have to touch those Princeton Review/Baron's review books again. I still have SAT I in December, but now I'm contemplating whether or not to even take it. I already signed up, so I might as well take it, but seriously. I don't know if a few more points is really going to affect my chances of getting in. Maybe if I get 2300+, but really what's the difference between 2220 and 2250? One or two problems? Meh. I guess I can waste another Saturday...

LDI is coming up (next weekend) and to tell you the truth, I'm not very excited. I am rooming with sophomores... however cool they are, I don't know how well I'll fit with their group. I wish my friends were going, but NOO they're going to Cal Tech for Siemens.. which brings me to another topic to talk about... EVERYONE WHO WORKED W/ DR. K ARE SIEMENS REGIONAL FINALISTS!! everyone except me, that is! WoOotttt. no, i'm really happy for them but it's kinda saddening to be excluded from it. o well i think we're still doing something else in January and I can be involved:)

Roar. what else is there to say? Ok random thoughts... I have to finish a 1000 page book by Tuesday (Brothers Karamazov by Dostoevsky), and I'm only on page 60:(. I'm looking forward to Dancing with the Staff this Wednesday. Should I go to the Harvard admissions session in Irvine on Tuesday? T_T I want to, so I can learn more about the school, but I might be busy.. and I don't think I can get in anyways. I love art class, especially sitting outside painting my naked lady, feeling the calm breeze going through the strands of my hair..it's very relaxing and I'll be sad when it's time to go inside because of the rain. I also feel very bad about neglecting Mr. Sketchbook.. I feel an urge to start anew, especially because it already fell apart. >< I should really pay attention in econ more... and stats for that matter.. i failed the last test. I need to participate more in English and participate at least once in philosophy. I am going to tutor three people starting next week, but two of them haven't even replied yet><. I'm excited about AEP on Monday, but I hope people actually show up!! OKAY i'm outta here.

CIAO!